Earlier I was asked what would make the rest of my senior year perfect, I thought that was something important to talk about...
So how can I explain my perfect little world to you? Well, since I am a seventeen and a girl I can guess that most of what I want is pretty generic. I want to get good grades this and next semester, and I want to make my parents proud of me. I didn't go to prom last year, and I really want to go this year, as much as I say I don't want to go. I'm really afraid I won't be asked to prom and that's important to me, I want to know that somebody wants to go with me and dance with me and I want to feel pretty in my dress. Honestly, I want to feel like somebody wants me, and I am so afraid that nobody ever will. Every person i have ever liked has rejected me, before I even had a chance. Rejected as a friend is probably the worst feeling in the world, my rock bottom. No person wants to even be in my company, the people I see, either pity me or I had invited myself along. Have you ever had the feeling that you are kind of invisible or that extra wheel that's just sort of there in case of a flat? that's how I feel, all the time. So, perfect world: Get the grades, and the guy of my dreams and go on to amazing things. Real world: barely making the grade, no guy, no confidence, and no chance.
So how can I explain my perfect little world to you? Well, since I am a seventeen and a girl I can guess that most of what I want is pretty generic. I want to get good grades this and next semester, and I want to make my parents proud of me. I didn't go to prom last year, and I really want to go this year, as much as I say I don't want to go. I'm really afraid I won't be asked to prom and that's important to me, I want to know that somebody wants to go with me and dance with me and I want to feel pretty in my dress. Honestly, I want to feel like somebody wants me, and I am so afraid that nobody ever will. Every person i have ever liked has rejected me, before I even had a chance. Rejected as a friend is probably the worst feeling in the world, my rock bottom. No person wants to even be in my company, the people I see, either pity me or I had invited myself along. Have you ever had the feeling that you are kind of invisible or that extra wheel that's just sort of there in case of a flat? that's how I feel, all the time. So, perfect world: Get the grades, and the guy of my dreams and go on to amazing things. Real world: barely making the grade, no guy, no confidence, and no chance.