Run your car off the side of the road Get stuck in a ditch way out in the middle of nowhere Or get yourself in a bind lose the shirt off your back Need a floor, need a couch, need a bus fare This is where the rubber meets the road This is where the cream is gonna rise This is what you really didn't know This is where the truth don't lie You find out who your friends are Somebody's gonna drop everything Run out and crank up their car Hit the gas, get there fast Never stop to think 'what's in it for me?' or 'it's way too far' They just show on up with their big old heart You find out who your friends are Everybody wants to slap your back wants to shake your hand when you're up on top of that mountain But let one of those rocks give way then you slide back down look up and see who's around then This ain't where the road comes to an end This ain't where the bandwagon stops This is just one of those times when A lot of folks jump off When the water's high When the weather's not so fair When the well runs dry Who's gonna be there? | Find out who your friends are is a song I think everybody should know, that everybody should think about. It really puts a lot into perspective for me. The most recent example I have is that I was driving my friend Breezy home around two in the morning and I took a corner a little too fast, we ended up in the ditch more stuck in the dirt than the snow. We called Clayton, to pick us up more than anything because we were in the ditch facing oncoming traffic. But when he got there he began digging us out, he didn't have to do that and I owe him one. He is my new favorite. Not going to lie, the whole thing had me completely freaked out. We had also called breezy's brother and when he finally answered the phone and she asked him to come help us he said no... cool beans, (At least both of our dads came to help too). On another note though, I have a sinking feeling that most of my friends are only on the bandwagon when I'm on top of the mountain. I leave you with this: is it better to be on top all the time not knowing who your friends are, or to fall from that mountain devastated but finding out who your real friends are? What about when you're climbing that mountain and the friends you gain along the way, how do you know they are true? |
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![]() When you think of christmas, you probably think of family spending time together and gifts and being happy, am I right? Well this year my family really nailed the whole christmas thing right on the head. To understand the situation you need to know that my parents are in the middle of a divorce, honestly they have hit a wall. They are living separately and this is the first Christmas like this, things are going to go well don't you think? Anyhow, Christmas eve my brother and I spent with my dad at his house, it was wonderful. things were going well when we all went to bed and morning just came way too soon. In the morning my brother and I left to go to my mother's home. Things went smoothly until the afternoon when we went to my grandmothers... We were all there from my grandparents to my aunt and uncles family, the only person missing was my dad. okay, weird already for me. So we do what we always do and we eat and then open gifts. It was after gifts that things got rocky, me and my brother were talking and my mom blocked us in a room and started yelling at us for everything from my gifts being subpar to my brother no longer being allowed to go to his dads house. WHAT THE HELL, IT'S CHRISTMAS. YOU DON'T FUCKING SAY THAT TO YOUR SON BECAUSE YOU ARE ANGRY! Then my brother, reasonably, got pissed. This was not the time, day, or place for this, everybody could hear what was going on, I didn't want to be a part of it. So then I was going to leave and she started in on me again and all I got out of it was that I'm basically a worthless daughter and I'm terrible and she wants nothing to do with me anymore. I've had no contact from her since and I don't expect any in the future. Christmas has forever been ruined. Luckily I was able to save the evening because a friend and I went to a movie and it was a good time, for the most part. Oh, but when I got home the night still wasn't over... why end christmas on a positive note? I got a phone call, my friends house was broken into and she was robbed and she needed me there because she was scared and had to take inventory to know what was missing. The poor dear, so I had to go over there to help her. And that is how I spent Christmas night. Christmas sucks. It was supposed to be a no strings thing, we were just hanging out. He specifically told me not to become attached. I couldn't do the one thing he asked of me, I fell for him. He was sweet and we had a lot of fun together, or so I thought. I can't get him out of my mind since I went to school. In the beginning he told me that he feels like every person leaves him and that really tugged on my heart. I promised him that I would never leave him, unless he specifically told me that he wanted me gone. He doesn't talk to me very much anymore, but I am trying so hard to keep my word. I think I fell in love with this man. I don't know how to fall out of it. I need to. I can't get through to him, and I really need to stop feeling this way. Stop being lonely. I'm broken hearted and I can't keep ruining new relationships on an off chance he cares even a little. Why is false hope and relationship obsession the one girly thing I have going for me? There are so many things that point me in a direction that I should stop and give up.
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