So I know I haven't been here recently and I apologize, but there are so many things going on and I may or may not cover all of them...
So college related stuff: I took my ACT and I got 28, I am not going to lie I am pretty proud of myself :) But honestly though I really have no idea what I am going to do for college, I want to go away. photo journalism? professional photography? museum curator? librarian? anything to do with public relations?
(my true goal in life is to just work at a job I love until i can afford to just travel the world and photograph everything)
jumping to prom now... It will be on may tenth, all i have is my dress and shoes.. But my friend gave me the absolute greatest list ever, and here it is:
PROM
Corsage
hair
makeup
nails/toes
shoes (check)
necklace
bracelets
bra/panties
dress (check)
garter
purse
the greatest list ever right? the only thing I had to add was a date because I don't have one which is kind of sad. And I keep having this dream that i will be asked to prom and it will be super sweet and then i will have a date, i dream that somebody wants to go with me. but reality check, nobody wants to go with me really.
pictures will come to be posted, I promise.
Now I bet y'all want to hear about my (nonexistent) love life, right?
so this could get kind of complicated.. we all know that i not so recently broke up with Shaun, well recently enough i had to cut all ties with him, recently like this week.... and so far i am doing pretty good at that. He was not good for me, and i have had three people bribe me to get my act together. I think I can do this. Seriously though, I am having feelings for a friend that i really should not have. I would never ever tell this friend no, I would do anything he wanted and be anyone he wanted me to be. he wants to be friends, and not the kind with benefits i don't think. I just really really want my friend to be happy. So the fact that I am hooking this friend up with another person because that would make him the happiest, isn't stupid is it? one of my girlfriends told me that i'm not helping anyone, especially not myself. I said I had planed to help him, and this is what she said, "How the hell are you doing that? By sucking him off until he gets her and doesn't want you? where does that leave you? Crushed, torn apart, and suicidal." let me tell you first of all she has very extreme opinions, she is not really wrong, but i know what is right, and this is right. For him, and her, and me... somehow. Recently I have been throwing myself at any guy that would even look at me in that sort of way, and i know you know what i am talking about. I've had a couple three ways, and i will not lie I have plans to hook up some guys this summer. and sometimes i have "interesting conversations" with these other men. you know a pictures worth a thousand words, one of my conversations could be worth a hundred pictures... its that interesting......... its terrible i don't even know what to consider myself.
"if i get all over you, can i get over him" I am trying to get over two guys, one who wanted me and was bad for me, the other who never wanted at me at all. so I've been throwing myself into sex and sexual stuff and situations to forget about these two boys. awesome right? the dream is still to find a great guy who will be my prince charming. but until then.... ;)?
i have so much more to say, and next time i am going to analyze my friend(s).... I AM NOT AFRAID!!!!
-so much love
GUMDROP
ps please feel free to contact me at any time
So college related stuff: I took my ACT and I got 28, I am not going to lie I am pretty proud of myself :) But honestly though I really have no idea what I am going to do for college, I want to go away. photo journalism? professional photography? museum curator? librarian? anything to do with public relations?
(my true goal in life is to just work at a job I love until i can afford to just travel the world and photograph everything)
jumping to prom now... It will be on may tenth, all i have is my dress and shoes.. But my friend gave me the absolute greatest list ever, and here it is:
PROM
Corsage
hair
makeup
nails/toes
shoes (check)
necklace
bracelets
bra/panties
dress (check)
garter
purse
the greatest list ever right? the only thing I had to add was a date because I don't have one which is kind of sad. And I keep having this dream that i will be asked to prom and it will be super sweet and then i will have a date, i dream that somebody wants to go with me. but reality check, nobody wants to go with me really.
pictures will come to be posted, I promise.
Now I bet y'all want to hear about my (nonexistent) love life, right?
so this could get kind of complicated.. we all know that i not so recently broke up with Shaun, well recently enough i had to cut all ties with him, recently like this week.... and so far i am doing pretty good at that. He was not good for me, and i have had three people bribe me to get my act together. I think I can do this. Seriously though, I am having feelings for a friend that i really should not have. I would never ever tell this friend no, I would do anything he wanted and be anyone he wanted me to be. he wants to be friends, and not the kind with benefits i don't think. I just really really want my friend to be happy. So the fact that I am hooking this friend up with another person because that would make him the happiest, isn't stupid is it? one of my girlfriends told me that i'm not helping anyone, especially not myself. I said I had planed to help him, and this is what she said, "How the hell are you doing that? By sucking him off until he gets her and doesn't want you? where does that leave you? Crushed, torn apart, and suicidal." let me tell you first of all she has very extreme opinions, she is not really wrong, but i know what is right, and this is right. For him, and her, and me... somehow. Recently I have been throwing myself at any guy that would even look at me in that sort of way, and i know you know what i am talking about. I've had a couple three ways, and i will not lie I have plans to hook up some guys this summer. and sometimes i have "interesting conversations" with these other men. you know a pictures worth a thousand words, one of my conversations could be worth a hundred pictures... its that interesting......... its terrible i don't even know what to consider myself.
"if i get all over you, can i get over him" I am trying to get over two guys, one who wanted me and was bad for me, the other who never wanted at me at all. so I've been throwing myself into sex and sexual stuff and situations to forget about these two boys. awesome right? the dream is still to find a great guy who will be my prince charming. but until then.... ;)?
i have so much more to say, and next time i am going to analyze my friend(s).... I AM NOT AFRAID!!!!
-so much love
GUMDROP
ps please feel free to contact me at any time