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I do not want to be in your fucking loop anymore. It makes me sad. I can't compete with your life. You're amazing. You have it all figured out. You brush me off because I have problems. You don't care, you want to be friends when things are good and happy. I need a friend when things aren't good or happy. How come I am that friend, but I don't ever get to have that friend. I'm afraid I start talking and I won't be able to stop. And you'll hate me. Your life is more important than mine. My problems make me crazy and nobody wants to deal with me. I know I suck. I get it. And you are great, I can't handle the comparison, the judgement, the hatred. I'm ignored forgotten and pushed away by all the minute my exterior cracks. I cry, I get jealous, I am denied and hurt. Tell me please, will it be okay? Do I have any real friends? Am I even worth it?
Better than this..
-gumdrop