Why do I let myself get my hopes up? Why did I think that this might be different this time? Nothing has changed. Not even a little. Am I desperate, in love, or fatally attracted to the bad boy? Why do I want the one person who wants nothing more than sex? I don't even know If he honesty finds me attractive. He said "you want to have sex with me and if you want to keep doing it I want..." Why was I okay with this statement? I should have been appalled. Yet for some reason I had hope that he may have actually wanted to be with me. Should I thank him for setting me straight? "Are we going back to our original agreement; friends with benefits." Sure, what else can I say. You're what I want, take it or leave it. Although I should leave it. I know I want more from you. You know I want more too. Do you secretly want more or are you using me because you know you can; do you care about me? I'm going to crash and burn and I can't turn away from you. Did you're most recent flame burn out, is that why you're taking to me again? If we do this are you going to be fucking other girls? I don't have any right to ask you that, do I? Sure we both are free to make choices and sleep with other people, after all it's only friends with benefits. Either way It's plain to see that I wouldn't be sleeping around. I'm not the type. Even with friends with benefits. Especially with you. I already know how this will end, and it's not good. For me.
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