Some of the best things in life are mistakes.
Hey guys, I know we haven't spoken in a while. Things have been not so crazy and wild. So here's the deal, I'm single and it's kind of driving me over a cliff. The final push over the edge is this one guy though, he's very attractive and he's funny and he's such a sweetheart. And he makes me want to be with him, there is one problem with it though, I'm not his type and he is very much mine. I want to kiss him and I want him. But I want more than the no strings sex that is available to me. He's a great person, and I'm not sure he knows it. I want to date him and be good for him, he needs somebody to be good to him. Sadly though I'm nothing to this guy, I'm not attractive to him and yet for some reason he still wants to have sex with me, oh wait, teenage guy of course he doesn't care as long as he's getting laid. Caractaristically though I'm not a slut. And to quote a friend, I'd just be another notch in his belt. I can see that, I'm not blind, I know what I'd be getting into and he told me up front that nothing would come of it except a little bit of fun. It's a bad idea, but I'm already hooked on him. I've got two options: 1. just do it and have some no strings sex with a very attractive guy. Screw feelings. 2. Quit it before it starts, he's great and all, but I have feelings for him aside from lust. My question is what do I do? I can't be around him and not want to choose option one.. Any other suggestions? As far as I know I'm terrible with anything no strings attached. But I'm up for trying things. I guess I have to be. If this is what it takes to get over my ex and over how icky he made me feel, I guess I can cut all the strings. Apparently I think too much about these things, but when I don't think then bad things happen to me. And I break a little more. Maybe I should just be no strings for the rest of my life? It has to get easier over time, right?
Thanks for listening again.
Yours always,
Gumdrop