What the fuck is my problem? I don't understand, will somebody tell me what's wrong with me? I'm jealous of my friends around me, they all have what I can't. They all have something special. My best friend has so many men that want her, she's got curves and can flirt with anybody, seriously. I'm just there like "Hey guys, I breathe too..." I'm so awkward and can not flirt to save my life. Every guy wants her, and she has her pick. I literally can not be around her without getting jealous, judged, or sad. And this is my best friend I am talking about, talk about a healthy relationship... Not only that but I talk to people online, and I'll be honest, I am a total jackass. I'm talking to these guys and two of them "love" me, I've never met them, they live somewhere in Illinois and Colorado, I don't understand how you can feel that way in under a month especially having never met me. It doesn't fit with what usually happens, falling in love with anybody else around me. But me being the terrible human that I am, I said I love you too, to both of them. Why would I do that? They're both sweet, but I've never met them, and I am not in love. Then there's a couple guys from Saudi Arabia who keep chatting with me, basically saying I'm great, and don't get me wrong... It's sweet, but really weird. Lastly, there's this guy I met him online as well, but he's a sweetheart, he's nerdy and dorky and afraid of storms. And sadly people pick on him and I don't understand why, he's great. So I helped him out just a little, I told him he could tell people we were dating and sent him some "proof" so he could get his asshat cousins off his back. He told me that he likes me too, I don't know what it is about the internet but apparently I'm attractive online.... How come I'm so messed up that I can't get a date here in Minnesota? Am I that icky, are others just that hot? Am I not smart/funny/pretty/witty/exciting enough? Hate my life at the moment.
Love yourself first
-Gumdrop.